I Don’t Want Your Pity

I have had numerous conversations today and received many messages of love and support. Again, I’m up thinking about life, but I never think about what could have been anymore.…

Why Are You Doing This To Me?

Famous last words from a spouse who doesn’t understand the repercussions of destroying a marriage. It’s 4:30AM, I haven’t slept a wink yet. I am at peace, yet I feel…

Just A Fool For Believing

I have cluster headaches. They are daily, they come go as my mind wanders, and they completely screw me up mentally. Today, I have a huge headache and I’m walking…

Anxiety Attacks During Marital Separation

I’ve been having a boatload of anxiety attacks since D-day. Every month they escalate where breathing and meditation doesn’t work for me in the moment. I’m very methodical in everything…